11/29/2025
Lotte responded via the Come See a Man website that she would like to share her testimony here, and we soon scheduled an appointment. Personally, I did not know her until then, but my husband did. In September of this year, they were in the same group that left on a mission trip to Brazil.
We scheduled our appointment for Saturday, November 29th, in my hometown; coincidentally, she lives in a neighboring village, allowing me to combine our meeting with a family visit afterward. It was cold when I got into the car at 9 a.m., heading towards the agreed-upon lunchroom, a drive of just under an hour for me. Upon arrival an hour later, I stepped inside, and despite it still being early, it was already pleasantly busy. Lotte was already there, and we soon got to know each other better, only to discover quite quickly that the table we had chosen was in a rather noisy spot, right next to the counter and the barista machine, LOL. So, we moved to a spot at the back of the place.
After a long but immediately pleasant introduction and getting to know each other, I start “the band” and give her the floor to share her story…….
- Lotte, it’s really nice and cool that you want to share your story. Briefly introduce yourself.
I am Lotte, and I am forty-two years old. I was born in Bunschoten/Spakenburg and grew up with my parents and three sisters in Hooglanderveen.
- How nice! Then we were born and raised in the same region! How did your faith life begin, your walk with God?
“From the age of eleven, I too became increasingly involved in New Age.”
Well, I was raised Catholic, so I basically only knew Jesus on the cross. I learned all the traditions of the Roman Catholic Church, and we had to go to church every Sunday. I also made my First Communion, but I never really felt anything about it. This was more the way of growing up in our family; it was part of the upbringing.
Until my mother became seriously ill and started looking in all sorts of other areas outside the Roman Catholic Church. Eventually, she ended up with New Age. At that time, I was around eleven years old, and I also stopped going to church on Sundays.
So yes, in that way, and from the age of eleven, I too became increasingly involved in New Age. I went along with my mother to all kinds of spiritual fairs, and she gave me jewelry with all sorts of pendants “for protection.” Yes, you really can’t imagine anything too crazy that I haven’t done or seen within the New Age.
“I fell into a severe depression and struggled with suicidal thoughts.
I did not know God at that time, so I threw myself deeper into the New Age.”
When I as around thirty-five, I fell into a severe depression and struggled with suicidal thoughts. I did not know God at that time, so I threw myself deeper into the New Age.
“I also spoke with deceased people. or so, I thought.”
During tough periods, I would revive myself for a while by applying all sorts of New Age practices, only to collapse hard again. I did, however, start my business at that time; I did horse coaching combined with healing and reading sessions, and I also spoke with deceased people—or so, I thought. By now, I know that those weren’t deceased people, but demons. I transmitted images, could tell things about people or things that were about to happen, and I gave energy to ground people. Looking back, I think… well…
- Yes, I understand that, but you had no idea!
Yeah, well, that’s right.
- But what was it like within your family at that time? Because you and your mother had “switched” from the Roman Catholic Church to the New Age. Where was your father at that moment, or what was his stance on all of this?
My father still went to the Roman Catholic church every Sunday. But although he did go to church and was very active within it—for example, by helping to serve at Mass and serving on the church board—he did not read the Bible. He did not even own a Bible. He also had absolutely no living relationship with God.
Meanwhile, he gave my mother all the space to investigate what she thought she needed to investigate.
- And your two older sisters? Where did they stand in life regarding faith at that time?
My sisters also headed in the direction of New Age and are still fully immersed in it. That often makes things difficult because we have so little in common now. We have very different outlooks on life because I know God now. When I converted to Christianity, I was quite the “full throttle” type in the beginning, even with my family, and that didn’t go down well with my sisters and my mother. After my conversion, I also burned everything that had anything to do with New Age, which made my mother quite angry. She didn’t understand it at all.
- I understand; that is very difficult indeed. We also read in the Bible that Jesus himself says there will be division, even within families (Luke 12:51-53). But what was the moment, then, when your eyes were opened to the Truth?
“Show me something! Whether You exist or why I was put on earth!”
That was when I was on a retreat in Bali, Indonesia.
They were doing all kinds of sessions there, including yoga. At that time, I had already been in that depression and burnout for two years, and I still remember being there, sitting in the hotel room, when I suddenly started saying out loud, “Show me something! Whether You exist or why I was put on earth!” Shortly after that, I was in one of the sessions, and the man leading it looked exactly like Jesus to me!
At least, the way I pictured Jesus in my mind, the way I thought He would look: long hair, a little beard. Anyway, he reminded me of Jesus, so I started laughing out loud during that session.
Strangely enough, that was the starting point where things really started to roll. At some point, I returned to the Netherlands; I wanted to search, but where do you begin? I had no one around me in that regard. I did talk about it with my mother, and she “coincidentally” got in touch with a friend of hers from the past shortly after. This childhood friend now also had an adult daughter who was living in South Africa at the time and had also been deeply involved in New Age but had since come to faith in South Africa! So our mothers thought it was about time we got in touch with each other as well.
- Oh wow! So your mother was still in the New Age at that time, but she was pushing for contact with the daughter of her friend who had left the New Age behind and converted!
Yes, that’s right. It was a bit of a mixed feeling, because on the one hand she often prayed for me, but on the other hand she was indeed also engaging in New Age practices. In the end, her prayers were answered!
“She also prayed against my “third eye.” (ajna chakra)”
I contacted the daughter, who was in South Africa. A few months after our first contact, she was in the Netherlands for other reasons, and we met up. During this meeting, she also prayed for me, with my mother present as well. She also prayed against my “third eye.”
Some people involved in the New Age movement have a third eye. The third eye (ajna chakra) is a spiritual energy center on your forehead, known as the “eye of wisdom,” which represents intuition, inner insight, visualization, and spiritual consciousness; in the New Age, this is activated through meditation, mindfulness, and the use of gemstones such as amethyst in order to achieve a deeper connection with the self and higher knowledge beyond the ordinary senses.
This is absolutely not from God! So she prayed against it to close it. That day we went for a walk and talked a lot. A few days later, she went back to South Africa, and I really thought, “And now? What should I do now? Where should I go?”
I really had no idea how to proceed, but what I did know with full conviction was that I had to get baptized!
- Did you have that conviction after you had spoken with her? Or was it something that God had already placed in your heart?
“I just have to get baptized! Period!”
She had spoken to me about it too, but it was something that had already crossed my mind, and at that moment it had truly become a deep desire: I just have to get baptized! Period!
But, where should I go? Where could I get it done? I really had no idea until I suddenly remembered an experience from years earlier; someone I knew had taken me to church back then as well. At the time, I found it terrible—I remembered that—but I couldn’t help but think of this again.
I looked up the church on the internet and then went there to get baptized. My mother, one of my sisters, and my two cousins were there too. What was particularly remarkable at the time was that I was initially the only one who had signed up to be baptized, but during the baptism service, four men spontaneously got baptized that day too!
Not long after my baptism, I received an invitation from a friend in South Africa to visit her there! No sooner said than done, and with that, a desire to one day go to South Africa became a reality!
Once I arrived there, I also started reading the Bible more and more. I started at the beginning, in the Old Testament; well, I didn’t understand any of it at all, LOL. On top of that, I even got a bit angry at God; how can all those people be slaughtered?! But anyway, later on you naturally learn more and more and start reading the New Testament too, but I found it all quite complicated at first.
“I saw a black cloud enter the room! And then I thought… this is really not okay!”
The time in South Africa was very beautiful and impressive! I still remember a moment when I was in a room with her and we were praying, and suddenly I saw a black cloud enter the room! And then I thought… this is really not okay! But the bizarre thing was also, before I went to South Africa, I had made cards for my business with “Medium” on them, because at that time I was still working on my business, and I had a number of these cards with me at the time.
The moment we finished praying and I saw that black cloud invade the room, I went straight to my room and tore up the cards and got rid of them!
Well, immediately after returning home to the Netherlands, I also threw away the rest of all the cards, but also everything related to New Age: books, items, jewelry, you name it.
“Step by step, I distanced myself more and more from the New Age.”
And now, step by step, as I walk more and more in faith, my eyes have been opened, and I started throwing away more and more things. Step by step, I distanced myself more and more from the New Age and also from the friendships and contacts I had from that world. At a certain point, I also removed a great many people from my social media.
- Oh wow, did you get any reactions from people about this afterwards, or about the fact that you were now a Christian?
Yes, I did get some reactions, but those conversations were quite awkward, partly because I had only recently come to faith and couldn’t yet refute a lot of things myself. I knew that certain things weren’t from God, but I couldn’t really explain the how or why yet, which led to counter-reactions like, “Yeah, but God is just love, and all that,” and at that time, I didn’t have enough biblical knowledge to substantiate why certain New Age practices aren’t biblical.
People also tried to pull me back into the New Age, and at times in the past, I myself longed to return. I was quite free in life and within the New Age, had many contacts, often went live on Facebook with all kinds of explanations and practices regarding the New Age, and was even on the verge of releasing a book.
“I ended up with a Christian coach.
He showed me a room where he had all kinds of books, and he said, “Yeah, you know, sometimes I just get my information from these books.” I looked around and saw all kinds of New Age-style books!”
After my conversion, I immediately put a stop to that process as well, because naturally I no longer stood behind the content of that book.
It was supposed to be about my journey from suicidal thoughts to life, but through the New Age.
By then, I was also trying to read the Bible, but I still found it quite difficult and complicated. Additionally, I was struggling with very depressive periods at that time. I did ask the church for help then, but unfortunately, that was virtually nonexistent. Anyway, eventually, through a friend at the time, I ended up with a Christian coach.
The first time I went to see him, I thought, “Well, okay, I can work with this.” But at the second appointment, things went differently. I had barely entered when he showed me a room where he had all kinds of books, and he said, “Yeah, you know, sometimes I just get my information from these books.” I looked around and saw all kinds of New Age-style books!
Not only that, but I was perplexed. He told his story, after which I left, and I never went back.
- Terrible, yet it doesn’t even surprise me. There are so many people who just throw a “Christian veneer” over everything and think that makes it all right…. How did you get home afterward? I mean, you go there for help, and I can imagine you thinking, What happened here!?
Well, you can certainly say that, yes, I found it very difficult. I had already tried to get help, which hadn’t worked for so long; you think you’re finally in a good place, and then you go through this!
This ultimately also put an end to the friendship with the person who had referred me to this man. Yes, and I found it so hard to understand that so many people within the church were going to this man for help too! So yes, you don’t need to come to me anymore with Christian coaches or Christian yoga or anything like that…
I’ve already had a lot of discussions about that. But anyway, at that time I still wasn’t experiencing the complete freedom the Bible speaks of; I still had many moments of depression and attended all kinds of conferences and healing services, but for a very long time nothing helped, and I kept struggling.
- What went through your mind at those moments? You hear and read about how God liberates and gives life, but you don’t experience that in your own life yet; that must be very difficult, I imagine…
Yes, well, actually all the lies I had heard over the years before, such as “There is something wrong with you,” went through my head again.
I kept seeking help within the church; I kept indicating that I needed help, that I came from the New Age, was now a Christian, but was still struggling with so many difficulties and depressions.
I was so desperate and desperately looking for someone who could help me move forward, and primarily someone who was familiar with the New Age. But no matter how much I kept asking and seeking help, it never really came.
It was such a difficult time because, on the one hand, you are a baby in the faith, and on the other, you have just come out of the New Age, and because the New Age resembles Christianity so much in certain matters, it was a real struggle for me to discern what was right or what I should stay far away from.
Take prophesying, for example; I did something similar with my business, telling people what I saw. So, they are very similar, only from a completely different source.
Over time, I did come into contact with people who also come from the New Age, who all say the same thing: that there is very little help within the church for people like us from the New Age.
- That’s difficult! But let’s get back to that, just for me, because I am really completely unfamiliar with New Age. Sure, you hear things about it here and there, but I have never really delved into it that much; so, just broadly speaking, what exactly does New Age entail?
“Within the New Age, you are continuously searching for something to fill that void through all kinds of occult rituals and practices. Nothing in it is permanent.
Yoga belongs to this as well”
Yes, it is quite complicated to sum that up briefly, but essentially it comes down to this: in the New Age, you see yourself as a god and act primarily from your “self.”
Additionally, as human beings, we are all searching for love, in the New Age too, but here you are always moving from one thing to another, to the next and the next.
You go through all sorts of rituals just to try and fill that void. Very exhausting. And from time to time you might feel “satisfied” for a moment, but that soon disappears again, and you have to seek it in another ritual.
Within the New Age, you are continuously searching for something to fill that void through all kinds of occult rituals and practices. Nothing in it is permanent.
Man, I have practiced so many rituals: Reiki, yoga, I’ve had chakra photos taken, done family constellations, and done of free-flow writing (automatic writing). I think I’ve done at least thirty or forty different things just to find that peace.
- But, should I then view New Age as an umbrella term for all these rituals and exercises combined?
Yes, you could certainly see it that way. Yoga belongs to this as well. It is a movement.
- But how did you eventually manage to turn things around, because you had your business in this too…? I assume that at some point God showed you that this wasn’t quite the intention
Yes, that’s right. I realized things had to change.
So initially, I converted my business into horse coaching. At the time, I still thought it was possible, but eventually, I stopped doing that completely as well. My business wasn’t profitable at the time, and looking back now, I do believe that God’s blessing didn’t rest upon it. So I stopped doing this, not only out of love for God but also out of my love for horses.
After all, you have appropriated a certain way of working, so I could fall back into that. I was also doing family constellations with the horses, and you work in a kind of energy field.
- What exactly is a family constellation, because for me, that whole New Age thing is still “far removed from my reality”…
Family constellations are essentially sessions where you introduce a problem, trauma, or theme (for example, relationship problems, fears, or traumas you are stuck in) and use other people—though this can also be done with objects or horses, as I did—as representatives for, say, family members.
The representatives are then intuitively placed in a space, and you subsequently observe who is standing close or far away, who is feeling tension, etc. This then starts to shift, and the person representing another person experiences certain feelings, for instance.
This worked with the horses as well. Horses are used as a “mirror”; for example, one horse might lie down, while another could become completely wild. Horses are very sensitive and react strongly to body language and tension. You can do this with objects too, but it is simply not okay.
- Wow… okay, so now I have to think of certain therapies, also under the banner of “Christian therapies,” where they use figurines, for example, to do these constellations… should I view this exercise as a family constellation as well?
Yes, so that is also a family constellation. 
The Bible also teaches us that when we accept Jesus, we have become a new person (2 Corinthians 5:17). You have let go of the past with this, so what are you going to do with family constellations? You are going to start digging into your past again! In my opinion, that is not okay, but anyway, everyone has to investigate for themselves what God’s Word says about this. Are family constellations mentioned in the Bible? Is yoga mentioned in the Bible?
- Yes, yoga is indeed one of those things too; people don’t see it as “wrong,” but unfortunately, many people, including Christians, see it as “just some nice stretching and a bit of relaxation.”
"Do you do yoga?" I said, "Uh, well, no, I am a Christian.”
Well, indeed, I had to see my GP’s practice nurse recently, and the first thing she asked was, “Do you do yoga?” I said, “Uh, well, no, I am a Christian, I come from the New Age, and I don’t do yoga anymore!” But then you see how deeply certain New Age practices have crept into our society, even among Christians! I had so much information, gear, books, and so on about all these practices; I had stuff worth thousands of euros lying around. I got rid of it all! Not only that, but I had just launched a new website for my business, which I had shut down; all the gear and materials—I threw it all away. The moment I also closed my business, I was suddenly approached by someone who was very high up in the world of horse coaching, who had a successful business and such.
This person approached me; they had an issue with a horse and asked if I wanted to come and help them! If I had gotten involved at that moment, it would have brought me an enormous amount of work, but I said no!
- Those are sacrifices! Satan is so cunning, isn’t he? You were just dangled a carrot in front of you for a moment there!
Well, you can say that again!
Later, I found work in childcare, but that turned out to be quite a process as well. After all, I don’t have children, but I do have this desire. And suddenly you find yourself taking care of someone else’s children…
- God can sometimes place you in places or position you where some pain is brought to the surface, not to torment you, but to bring it to light so that you can then bring it back to Him and He can work with that pain.
“I was just so disappointed in the people.”
Yes, I am indeed still finding my way in this as well. Learning to trust in Him. Not only in my work, but I am still searching for my path in the church too.
I recently switched to another church. This was such a difficult process too; I felt unseen and unheard in my previous church for so long. I did try to leave sometimes, but it wasn’t noticed or was taken the wrong way. At a certain point, I really said to God, “Okay Lord, I’m going to church because the Bible says I shouldn’t miss my gathering and because You are there, but as for the rest, I couldn’t care less.” I was just so disappointed in the people.
- You hear that more often, don’t you, that people are so hurt or disappointed in others that they let go of the church and God because of it… that is so sad!
Although I really felt that I was allowed to let go of this church, I still found it very difficult, you know.
I generally find it hard to let go of things anyway. I can be quite hard on myself, and whether that has to do with the fact that I’ve been single for so many years—you know, sometimes you just have to keep going—but letting go is something I don’t do very easily.
- True, but still, you have already let go of an enormous amount lately: friendships, your past, and even your business. You have already made many sacrifices, and God sees that too, right? It doesn’t necessarily have to be easy, but God sees your heart and that you are willing.
That is true; I also notice that I am getting to know myself again more and more.
I derived my entire identity from the New Age. But it would just have been very nice if I had had someone who could guide me a bit more in the faith. I was a baby in the faith and came from the New Age; I really had no idea! And of course God helps you, but I noticed that I still longed for someone within my church with whom I felt heard and seen or who could help me further with this.
Actually, only since I started attending Charis Bible College and recently went on a mission trip to Brazil have things been changing.
I am healing from all kinds of fears and the things that happened within the church that caused me to develop a fear of leaving.
- So it actually hasn’t been that long since you started noticing a real change in your faith life.
Yes, that’s right, for six years I just wasn’t seen or didn’t get the chance to get out.
- This just goes to show how important good discipleship is in a church! And where do you stand in your faith life now that you are under the teaching of Charis, attend a different church, and have also made a fantastic trip to Brazil?
“I expected that once I was baptized, a husband and children would follow quickly.”
“At times, I really feel like I am walking in a desert like the Israelites, just complaining, “Lord, when is it finally going to happen?”
I notice that I am definitely growing; I am also increasingly able to take a “chill pill,” as Greg Mohr often mentions in the lessons at Charis Bible College.
Yet, there are still often moments when I doubt myself deeply and think, “Am I doing this right?” I am now six years into my faith, and honestly, I expected that once I was baptized, a husband and children would follow quickly.
Perhaps that was a somewhat naive thought, but it was said, If you choose Jesus, you will receive a new life! So, this is what I had in mind.
And now, six years have passed, and sometimes you start thinking in the flesh, “What about my future?” At times, I really feel like I am walking in a desert like the Israelites, just complaining, “Lord, when is it finally going to happen?” LOL.
- You know, Joel 2:25 also says that God will restore all the years that have been stolen from us. And that is truly the case! I can testify to that; I have often meditated on this. The enemy also robbed me of a marriage, a family I dreamed of. And although my first marriage may not have been a fantastic marriage or one in which God was present, it was still a marriage. With children. It fell apart terribly, followed by a bitter divorce and enormous amounts of pain and sorrow. So yes, you are robbed of everything after all. But when I look at my life now, God has restored everything, and how! A marriage in which God is central, children who get along well with each other and with us. Everything has been restored! Everything that we often think we have lost, God can simply restore.
I believe that too, really, but what I find particularly difficult, and what often comes to mind, is that I have seen so many people around me get married, have children, and buy a house, and although I have had relationships myself sometimes, it never pointed in that direction.
And now I am walking with God, and I often think, “Lord, You have to do it.”
- And He is going to do that too. Sometimes we ourselves can still hold things back, consciously or unconsciously. I also always find it so beautiful how David prayed in Psalm 139: “Lord, search me.” In the same way, we may pray and ask Him to bring everything to light—our pains or fears caused by what we have experienced—so that we can clear it up together with Him and become completely whole and healthy.
I have never been married, but I do have such an enormous desire to be married. 
To share life with someone, to seek God, and to live for Him together. I know there is someone out there for me, but perhaps he is still in a process as well.
- That is certainly possible! I would simply pray for your future spouse. Even though you don’t yet know who it is or when he will come into your life, pray for him. I did that too, long before my husband came into my life; I prayed for him, for his health, for his relationship with God, for his family, and so on. That is truly very powerful! God knows your desire for a biblical marriage, and I certainly believe that it will come; the desires in your heart also come from Him, especially if they are in line with the Word. You know, you can simply focus on God; as we can also learn from Matthew 6:25-33, I truly believe that you can simply direct all your time and attention to Him, and God will take care of the rest.
- Are there still things in your faith life that you are really struggling with? Even though you have already shared a lot, the part about letting go, for example.
Letting go indeed, painful points being touched upon, and the direction I should take regarding my work.
I also notice that I find it quite difficult to maintain my focus on God and reading the Word. I am easily distracted at the moment, so I am really still struggling with this as well.
Additionally, I simply want to learn to hear God’s voice more.
Something else I am currently finding my way with is stepping out, asking people for help, and engaging in conversations.
I have experienced so many disappointments with this in the past that it is sometimes still a real struggle that I get to face together with God. I am so used to doing everything alone; I see this reflected in my family as well, with my mother and my sisters.
- While God actually asks us to give things to Him
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Exactly, so that is also something I am dealing with right now with Him.
What I also sometimes find difficult to see is how others sometimes do get a partner, even though they haven’t quite gone through their healing process yet, and I am so many years further along… and still no partner.
Sometimes that makes me angry too, and I wonder, what is the reason for that? And in this too, I do try to stay true to God’s Word, but, well… sometimes it is a challenge. I also notice that I look at relationships in a very different way now.
In the past, I gave my body very quickly in the hope and the idea that that person would become or remain my partner. But now with God, you don’t walk those paths anymore; it is the worst foundation you can ever lay, LOL.
“I have tried my way for so many years, so that is just not going to work anymore!”
Now I know that, and you look at a relationship with completely different eyes.
I have tried my way for so many years, so that is just not going to work anymore! It hasn’t been a waste of time, LOL.
- This is so relatable! When I was still single, I also said to God, “Lord, I have done it so often based on my own judgment, and that turned out to be crap; now I leave it to You.” Well, and you see how that turned out .
- What is the thing that has stayed with you the most right now that God has done for you or that you have learned?
“He took me along to visit a friend of his who turned out to be a former minister! There I was, sitting across from that man, in my shorts!”
Oh, there are actually several things. But a few things really stand out the most: in 2024, I was on Bonaire, and before I boarded the plane, I randomly struck up a conversation with someone who then sort of “took me under his wing” on the island because he lived there and knew his way around. And after a tour of the island, he took me along to visit a friend of his who turned out to be a former minister!
There I was, sitting across from that man, in my shorts! And I really thought, okay… if God can bring me to places like that so randomly, then He can also just bring me to high-ranking officials.
God had provided for all sorts of things during that entire vacation.
“Healing and deliverance from depression and suicidal thoughts.”
The second is my healing and deliverance from depression and suicidal thoughts, of course! What God also did recently was facilitate my trip to Brazil, and specifically the lead-up to it. I had requested time off for this, but after a while, I still hadn’t received an answer or approval. In the meantime, I was in telephone contact with someone from the leadership of this mission trip, and I indicated that I could not yet say whether I could go because I had not yet received approval for leave from my work.
To which she replied: “That may be the case, but I have a very strong feeling that you are simply going!” And I felt very strongly myself that I would go, even though it was not at all visible at that moment. Ultimately, I had a very strong feeling that God was asking me to quit this job, in faith.
And when I had done this, it turned out that my last working day was right before the departure to Brazil! Everything fell into place like a puzzle.
Now I have reached a point where I ask myself: “Okay Lord, which direction should I take now, regarding work?” That is what I am mainly dealing with at the moment, and to discern His guidance in this.
- Yes, I understand that that can be quite complicated sometimes, but you know, sometimes you might not yet fully experience God’s guidance, or you are standing at a crossroads thinking, “What now?” But God also asks us to make the right decisions even if He is silent for a moment. He looks at our hearts (1 Samuel 16:7), and He cares for us. Even if we sometimes take a wrong turn, He does not abandon us and will lead us back onto His path.
- Have you already been able to discover what your gifts and talents are during your walk with God?
I am currently still really puzzling over that. I do notice that prophesying comes easily to me, but then again, that is something that was used similarly in the New Age as well.
- God has already given it to you; only back then you used it for something that didn’t exactly glorify His Name, LOL.
Haha, yes…that is indeed true. I think that is something I need to learn to walk in. When I came out of the New Age, I cut everything off; I didn’t want anything to do with it. But now I am back in the process of: it is okay, and I can allow some things in, as long as God is the source and it is done His way. So yes, I can tell you that I still find that incredibly nerve-wracking right now. I am starting to open myself up more and more to the things I sometimes feel or experience.
For example, I can sometimes feel very strong in certain places when doors are closed, and I am then confirmed in this afterward.
“It is through the love of Jesus that I am allowed to show that New Age is not the way.”
Additionally, I feel that I need to do something to help and encourage people who are coming out of the New Age, are still in it, or are searching. I feel that this will happen via social media, but I notice that I still find it difficult to step out of that as well. You don’t want to come along wagging a finger saying, “This isn’t right, that isn’t right.” It is indeed through the love of Jesus that I am allowed to show that New Age is not the way. However, I am still exploring how or in what way I should approach this. Sometimes it makes me insecure too; then I want to get “things” sorted first before I think I am capable enough to help others.
- Well, let me just burst your bubble… having things sorted out… you keep running into problems, hahahah.
Yeah, I’m getting that idea more and more too, LOL
- But it is really beautiful! You know, often it is just your testimony that you have to share, and He does the rest! It is a new adventure with Jesus! I am very curious which Bible verse speaks to you.
“Clicked like a penny.”
At this moment, that is still John 10:10
“The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy; I have come so that they may have life, and have it abundantly.”
This Bible verse clicked like a penny the moment people prayed for my healing. Then I suddenly realized… “Oh, that’s how it works! The enemy has stolen and plundered from me!”
During moments when I wasn’t feeling well and was depressed, I started to realize, “Ah, wait a minute… there he is again…” In this way, you also become increasingly aware of what the enemy can do to your life.
- Amen! That’s how it is; you cannot acknowledge what you do not know! God is going to show you something first, make you aware, and then He will get to work with it!
- Do you have any idea what season you are in right now in your faith life? You mentioned a little earlier that you sometimes feel like you are sitting in a desert, like an Israelite, LOL.
Hahahah, yes, that’s right! I’ve felt that way very often, and sometimes still do, although lately I do have more of the feeling that I’m in a kind of transition between the seasons. As if I have the promised land in sight but can’t reach it yet!
- Ah! LOL, you still need to get it “quickly.”
- Well, dear sister… I could chat with you for hours, but for the sake of time, LOL, I want to ask you a few more things before we wrap up. Who is Jesus to you?
“Jesus is my Healer!”
Jesus is my Healer; at the moment when I sometimes still experience physical problems, I think of the words He spoke on the cross: “IT IS FINISHED.” It is simply finished, and now that I am more and more in the Word, the more I see His love. At the moment He hung on the cross, He still said, “This is your mother” (John 19:26-27), and to the criminal next to Him that he too will be with Him in paradise that day (Luke 23:43). It testifies to so much love!
Even when He was dying, He still thought of the other person!
He is truly my example! And those are still things that I myself still have to learn.
- Yes, but, well, you know… that is why He is God, and we are not… But we are on our way, from glory to glory (2 Corinthians 4:16-17).
- Do you want to leave anything else for the readers to take away?
Certainly!
Despite everything…persevere in faith!
Keep holding on to Him! 
Even if you might be hurt by people or go through difficult times… God is with you. Even when you don’t feel it, those are often the hardest moments, because that is when it comes down to your faith. Even when you struggle to read the Bible, see if you can find a place somewhere where you are motivated or where you are helped. It is about making conscious choices and seeking Him first, even though that is not always easy.
We must learn not to go to people, not to lean on people, but to go to God!
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Heel mooi getuigenis Lotte. Ik heb een deel van je reis met je op mogen lopen en ben blij dat ik je hebt mogen leren kennen. Veel zegen. Gr. T.