Oh, how a person can doubt and get confused.
Do you recognize that?
That you truly don’t know whether to go left or right, or just stand still?
The enemy loves to scatter these around; I notice that sometimes I still go along with his jumble of thoughts for far too long.
At the beginning of the year, of all times, doubt began for me regarding this website! Although I know steadfastly, with unwavering trust, that I was starting this website in February 2024 out of obedience to God, all kinds of questions and doubts arose within me, out of the blue.
Strongholds! You could say!
When Come See a Man had just “gone live,” I was actually only sharing my own walk with Jesus here through my blogs. After a year and a half of blogging, the “Testimony Wall” page was added, and soon after that, “In the Spotlight.” I already had my hands full with this, but because it was pointed out to me that there are still a lot of people who didn’t really feel like reading through my lengthy texts, the idea for “Come see a Man | Christian Podcast” was born.
And it didn’t stop there; I started designing merchandise, registered with the Chamber of Commerce, and called up my son Sem again to make adjustments to the website by adding the webshop.
In addition, the number of social media channels also grew—from just an Instagram account to a chat channel on it, to a Facebook page and a TikTok account—and I kept all of this under my own control! As a result, my days became longer or shorter, depending on how you look at it, LOL, my mood more in the flesh than in the Spirit, LOL, and the mess in my head grew bigger.
“For God is not a God of disorder but of peace—as in all the congregations of the Lord’s people.” - 1 Corinthians 14:33
HELP!
What the crip was I doing?!!
I felt like I was “all over the place” and ultimately nowhere. I was working my fingers to the bone and seeing no fruit from this entire ministry. After struggling through my own thoughts for a while, I was done with it.
I NEEDED INSIGHT! I NEEDED GOD! LORD HELP ME!
I screamed out to Him, on the verge of quitting everything, taking Come see a Man offline, deleting social media, and doing absolutely nothing with it anymore—end of Come see a Man.
Because what was the point? Who was I reaching anyway? What I was doing wasn’t making any difference anyway! I also planned to do absolutely nothing with the designed merchandise because I didn’t even have the finances to have it produced and purchased! I was almost convinced that Come see a Man, and everything attached to it, was one big flop, a typical case of “too bad,” and…they were two fantastic years, but wrap it up…and move on.
Not only that, but I prayed and begged God for direction, wisdom, and answers. I placed everything in His hands.
Until that day at school, Charis Bible College….
A day after my prayer, I was at school.
At the end of a class, a woman approached me, crying. Startled, I asked if something was wrong, “God wants me to bless you with a financial gift; I want to bless you.”
I was flabbergasted, but the most beautiful thing, and what I needed even more, were her subsequent words: “Sometimes I look at your website and I am so impressed; you really reach a lot of people, you really must keep going.”
This was such a huge confirmation of all my questions! But it didn’t stop there that day.
Later that day, I spoke to someone who has a ministry and I told him that I was impressed by what he had already been able to do with his ministry up to that point, to which he replied: “But I follow you too!” And you must not stop what you are doing; it always starts small, but keep going.”
Not much later, a prophecy followed. This person was guided by an image of a full sports stadium and said that he saw that I would reach many women with what I was doing here on the website, if only I kept going!
Completely impressed, I returned home at the end of the day. Not only did I have answers that I was on the right path and should not give up, but continue with Come See a Man, which I sincerely see as my ministry, but we were also financially blessed, allowing us to invest a portion of this in merchandise that had been sitting on the shelf for months!
I really want to encourage you: if God has placed something on your heart—whether that is to write a book, set up a website, start a business, or launch a podcast—but along the way, the enemy throws sand in your eyes, making everything blurry; bring everything to God and ask Him for wisdom, for insight, for clarity. He is not the author of confusion, but of order, structure, peace and overview, and when we do everything for the honor and glory of His Name, in which He is glorified and His Name is made known in the world, He will thereby His every step of the way.
“Commit your way to the LORD; Trust in Him also and He will do it.” - Psalm 37:5
Are you walking proudly with Him? Show the world that He changed your life, or playfully remind them that “y’all need Jesus” – grab your favorite cap now in the webshop!
